Endless Loop: Fade Into You

mazzystarHave you ever had one of those songs that gets stuck in your head for days…weeks…years? Sure you have. These are the songs that always make the cut. The songs on repeat. We all have them. I have a ton. Welcome back to Endless Loop.

“Fade Into You” by Mazzy Star

I am a shy teenager caught in an eternal slow dance in a school’s gymnasium, hushed, embarrassed, and awkward, my arms forever enfolding my unrequited love. I am an admirer pining away from a distance, but never standing to meet, gazing and longing forever. I am the loving and lonely soul who gives away my whole heart only to have it given back to me. I love what can never love me back.

I was in the ninth grade when the dreamy Mazzy Star released their second album So Tonight that I Might See, and I first heard the wonderful melancholy yearn of “Fade Into You,” the penultimate misfit slow dancer. The band’s ode to unrequited love pushes its strengths front and center with lead singer Hope Sandoval’s haunted and sorrowful vocals floating in the mix while the mournful slide guitar stabs us all in the pits of our hearts. Every lonely, outcast teenager had this song on a mixtape. It scored countless dark and solitary nights, accompanied long, handwritten letters that were never to be delivered, and soundtracked a thousand daydreamed scenarios. It served as the theme song of choice for any number of adolescent splits and breakups, a sublime stand-in for the pages and pages of bad poetry that teenage heartache inspires.

And it’s still transcendent over 20 years later.

Listening to “Fade Into You” now, I can’t help but feel my 15-year old insecurities bubbling up to the surface for reevaluation. I guess it’s all still there. That awkward, inexperienced kid still has his place, his dark and cluttered bedroom, somewhere deep within my soul.

But that’s okay. It’s all good and well so long as we have Mazzy Star to act as our prescriptive medicine, our audio pain pill.


Thomas H Williams

Thomas H Williams

From a bunker somewhere in Central Texas, Thomas H. Williams spends most of his time with his wife, his two sons, and his increasingly neurotic dog. He listens to a lot of music, drinks a lot of excellent beers, and gets out from time to time. For even more shenanigans, visit heavenisanincubator.blogspot.com.

2 Responses to Endless Loop: Fade Into You
  1. […] the lead track off of So Tonight I Might See entitled “Fade into You.” Read that here: E... joup.co/the-joup-friday-album-mazzy-star-so-tonight-that-i-might-see
  2. Shawn C. Baker Reply

    Beautifully worded my friend.

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