Endless Loop: At the Heart of It All

ninHave you ever had one of those songs that gets stuck in your head for days…weeks…years? Sure you have. These are the songs that always make the cut. The songs on repeat. We all have them. I have a ton. Welcome back to Endless Loop.

“At the Heart of It All” by Nine Inch Nails

A whole lot of stuff has happened over the last week.  It was a lot to take in.  A lot of death, guilty verdicts, guilty pleas, and possible ramifications for a neverending stream of even more stuff to come.  But, the inner cynic in me doubts that there’s really much to be happy about or excited for.  The inner cynic in me has no expectations for anybody to finally get their comeuppance, and if they did, what would come next would undoubtedly be so much worse.  The inner cynic in me lost faith in this broken system a long while back.  And the inner cynic in me is usually right about that kind of stuff.

So I guess we’ll all just wait and see as everything crumbles around us…turns to dust.

And while I wait, I’ll let some haunting and cinematic music score my mood, soundtrack the encroaching clouds as they black out the light.  I’m going to listen to “At the Heart of It All” from Nine Inch Nails’ 1995 remix album Further Down the Spiral.  And I’m going to watch the world go grey.

The bleak, 7-minute instrumental was created by Aphex Twin for Trent Reznor and Nine Inch Nails to use on said remix record, and it sounds like a harbinger of some sorts.  A crusty electronic beat pounds and hisses while a loop of an eerie horn section rises and falls, a dead fog laying over a cold and dying valley, like something out of a Cormac McCarthy novel.  It sounds like a processional for the end of all things, a final dirge to play our souls to eternity.  So, maybe it’s not so much a harbinger of things to come as it is a stark and icy denouement.

I guess that’s where we’re at these days.  I need to get off social media.


Thomas H Williams

Thomas H Williams

From a bunker somewhere in Central Texas, Thomas H. Williams spends most of his time with his wife, his two sons, and his increasingly neurotic dog. He listens to a lot of music, drinks a lot of excellent beers, and gets out from time to time. For even more shenanigans, visit heavenisanincubator.blogspot.com.

2 Responses to Endless Loop: At the Heart of It All
  1. Shawn Reply

    I’ve always had issues with the downward spiral, but equally i’ve always loved this remix album. This is where i was introduced to Aphex Twin. It always reminded me of the weird music in the Nintendo game Blaster Master, in the level with the little slime molds that run out of the drains and interfere with Your movements. Bleak, dark – perfect for our times. Hell, maybe that’s where we’re one up on all the other terrible moments in history, the fact that now we have musicians to score it accurately for us.
    And yes, social media bad.

    • Tommy Reply

      Oh man, Blaster Master!

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