A shotgun hole is so absolute. The vacuum a suicide leaves behind so engulfing, it’s the epitome of ambivalence in its dichotomy of grief and resentment. A disavowal. A denial. The crepuscular introduction of ‘Heart Shaped Box’ heralded summer’s decay on August 30th 1993, through the pregnant fluff-bubble of a cassette tape piped down wires that ran through the cobwebs, pipes, atrophying plaster and laths of the cellar ceiling, up into the kitchen speakers after school as the clouds bruised with the impending deluge. ‘In Utero’ would accompany me on a walkman through the rigor mortis of autumn, to the decidedly funerary flavour of ‘Unplugged in New York’, the snowy satellite TV-taped VHS of which us siblings watched on the bright, crisp, February 1994 morning we interned my mother in the furnace after cancer had turned her black.
Bob Van Persie, ‘One Man – Full House’ Exhibition Private View, Richard Goodall Gallery, Manchester England, September 12th 2013
The thinking behind bringing Bob Van Persie to Manchester for his first show in the UK was presumably motivated by little more than the fact that his son Robin is presently this City’s most celebrated adopted son, after Manchester United’s number 20 unarguably singlehandedly thrust them their 20th League title. This connection is exploited further still tonight as revealed by the restrictions on this private view, tightened to the extent that every VIP invitee is admitted under a couple of strict conditions:
“1. No photography,
2. Don’t ask Robin Van Persie for his autograph.”
(laying it on thick)
We are all gathered here today to
bid one final farewell to Anthony
Sebastian Clifton — who passed
from our midst far too soon. The
world has lost the greatest superstar
of all time … and I … have lost my …best friend.
But grieve not, my brothers, for
Tony need not be forgotten.
Fortunately, he can be remembered
forever … through this magnificent …
(pulls album out from behind podium)
DOUBLE MEMORIAL ALBUM. $18.95!
– Andy Kaufman & Bob Zmuda, ‘The Tony Clifton Story’ unproduced Screenplay, 1st draft 1/1/1980
This intrawebs fascinates me everyday because of the people I come across and what they have done with their lives. Take one Paul Colilli for example whom I had the privilege to interview for Joup. Colilli, recognized in the 70s Canadian Pop Culture with his time with Simply Saucer, boasts a Doctorate Degree in Medieval Italian literature. Now some 40 years after he’s recording music under his self-title. How in the hell did I come across someone like this? I think it’s worth a look-see.
I’m Paul Colilli, a founding member of Simply Saucer…”
Paul, you have my attention.